2014年7月21日星期一

♥...5...4...3...2...1...♥





5 days...
4 days...
3 days...
....
....

countdown-ing!!!!

yes! I am countdown for going back home! haha
I really can't hide my feeling of exciting when i think of the day i back home everytime^^
wahahhahaaahhaha
I planned my schedule properly already..
dont think so much
the schedule i mean is food list hahaha
i really miss the food in jementah walaoooooooo
so many food i must eat before i come back sungai long
that's mean i will be getting more & more fat + round when i come back here from jementah
haha nevermind lah
it is worth for me!!!! ^____^ ♥
After hari raya still got a lot of stuff need to be completed.
For instance,
presentation,2nd midterm,test,quiz....
Anyway, I will try my best to accomplish all this missions!!!
because this is my own responsibility who as a student!
Once i reach jementah,
I can meet my beloved family members,
my lovely hometown friends & hang out with them
OMGGGGGGGG
I am really happy & excited once i think of all these
So....
Waiting for me ya! my dear friends!!!! Love you all haha ♥♥

yes! today i feel like uncomfortable again no matter my physical or mental==
i dont know why some people like to sarcastic & laugh at the other people..
yes! i know you are smart & intelligence but u also need to respect to other people.
You make me so annoying sometimes...
i dont know how far i can bear all this...
i will explode 1 day...really if this condition still to be continued...

arghhhhhhh
my apartment face the problem of water shortage==
my goddddddd!!!!
i cant go to toilet because i have no water to flush ==
very kolian!!!! ><
water ah water~
come faster please~~~~~ T_T














2014年7月18日星期五

♥...THROWING MY FIT OF ANGER...♥

Today,
my BADDDDDD day!
i felt super duper down for whole day...
Until now, I still can't calm down...

This morning,
our A&P lecturer discussed the A&P midterm which held on this WED in the class
I just realized that i done a lot of careless mistake in my paper...
I do really sad & disappointed to myself
I even dont know why i can do such a stupid mistake in my paper??
transverse plane-superior & inferior!
Yes! i really knew the ans in my mind while doing the question...
But... I circle the answer wrongly!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I really cant express my feeling that time...
I just felt that how am I so stupid! Idiot! Careless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!$#@$#%&%&(^&*^(
Ok...
Another CARELESS mistake i done is i didnt read the question PROPERLY!!!!!!
The answer is as easy as ABC walaooooooooooooooooooooooooo 2marks ah that Q!!!! F**K!!!!
60marks i can confirmed that i will just get 40marks or above a little bit!!!
this is NOT what i want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I dont want this bad marksssssssss!!!!!!!!
I put a lot of effort in this paper!!!
I always study this subject until morning!!! 5am 4am even 6am
then now...
WHAT A BADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD RESULT I GET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i DONT WANT be the worst one!!!


I will explode one day!!!!!!!!!!!!maybe....
You are so fake!!!!
I HATE the people who always pretend themselves!
then always nagging in front of me!
Or sarcastic me!
BULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLSHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
Please take care the feeling of others!!!!!!
Now,I am really controlled my temper & patience
so please dont make me explode one day!
I really cant imagine what is the condition at that moment!
I really want to shout out DIRTY WORD now!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But...I cant!

I cant get what i expected even though i put a lot of effort!!!!
I swear...
I will not do the same stupid mistake in my coming 2nd midterm!!!!!!!!!!!



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即便付出再大的努力,
抑或比别人更加用功,
也得不到相等的回报!
挫败感很重!
但,
我想说,
我不想输!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
我的精神还是与我同在!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






♥...THROWBACK...♥

多久没写心情日记了?
数一数
真的好久了

光阴似箭,
来了Sungai Long也有一个月多的时间
问我在这里过得怎么样?
就不错!
也算普通,就是学生的日常生活。
上课 吃饭 温习 做功课 睡觉
不过如此而已.

最近,
不停地在问自己
现在的生活 是我想要的吗?
真的开心吗?
其实
我知道我并不开心.
因为,这一切并不是我真正想要的!
想要的,喜欢的,都离我太远太远
远到
我看不见 也摸不着.

现实逼得我太紧,
我没办法不向命运低头.
我知道,
这样太没骨气了.
可是,
我已无计可施.

有时侯,
真的觉得自己太没用了.
这一路走来,
我错过了
多少机会?
多少风景?
造就了多少遗憾.
我的人生,
充满了遗憾

生命只有一次,
无法再次重来,
我真的就这样度过我剩余的日子吗?
问问自己的心.
好多人都告诉我,
很多东西只要努力就可以.
可是,
在我的生活里,
我看到的 并不是这样.
很多东西不管我再怎么努力,
都得不到.
不是我的 就不是我的.
其实 很多东西也努力了只是徒劳无功.

昨晚,
独自一人观看着<<点金圣手>>
看到有一幕,
不自觉地掉泪了.
虽然强忍着,
但泪水还是不由得我控制而滑落.
其实 并不是什么感动 可怜的剧情,
只因为是 感同身受
我非常地可以理解那种
经济上的负担
金钱上的压力
戏里戏外大家都说
只要是钱能解决的问题都不是问题
我想说的是
说这句话的前提是
有钱吗?
金钱总是有着太多诱惑.
想问,
在这世界上,
有多少人的目标不是金钱?
有多人不是因为以赚更多钱的目标而活着?
有多少人努力读书而不是为了找到好的工作 拿到更高的薪水?
说到底
也就只是为了
多么地讽刺啊

当别人都对你抱着期望,
无形的压力展开了攻击
开始默默地侵蚀着你的心.
不想让对我抱有期望的人失望.
可是
我总是对自己不够有信心
虽然 我已经很努力地在学习着.
我不想成为最差 最烂的那个
我常常这样告诉自己.
但是
我还是很害怕.
难道
我的能力也只是那么地微不足道?
总是害怕踏出第一步.

我不怕跌倒
只怕走错路.
迷失了方向.

现在所有的一切结果
所要承受的 经历的
都是当时我所做的决定 选择.
我无法埋怨任何人.
IF YOU WANT A DIFFERENT RESULT
THEN MAKE A DIFFERENT CHOICE!
所以 这条路,
不管再怎么艰难 坎坷
跪着也要把它走完.
我已没有回头路.
或许
有一天
走到路的尽头 才发现
结局并不完美

但起码这是对自己的负责与尊重